Summer lovin' endin'

Present me is going to make it hard for future me to endure days without him. But I know future me can pull through. She always does. I'm just trying to make the best of summer. He'll be gone in less than a month. 

I can safely say, it's been a wonderful summer so far. Alhamdulillah. You know that mixed feeling you have for someone whom you've known for quite a long time and you're familiar with him, but at the same time it feels like you've just known him from a different point-of-view. Like he's completely a different person. I have that mixed feeling. I reckon not a lot of us get to come across this situation. This mixed feeling is gooooooddd, by the way.

You talk like you always do, as friends. We know our stories. There's not a lot to fill in. We talk about memories. We talk about our friends. We talk about our families. It's just easy. All the talking has been wonderful. Just like old times. We talk like old friends.

On another level, there are some other things that you feel new to the relationship. Like how he's become more attentive. He was attentive before, but it feels different this time around. And how caring and protective he gets around you. It's like you're a pearl kept safe away from harm. And he's the shell that's keeping it safe. And the best part for now is, how I caught him staring at me and when I turned his way, he kept his eyes locked on me instead of turning away. It left me smiling.

So you know that feeling - old and new.

It's all good.