Closer

Dulu when I had secrets or feelings or anything at all lah for that matter, I never confided in him. There was no welcoming aura to that conversation. Again, how the heck did I ever tolerate such behaviour? I used to say to my friend, "I believe every couple has their own rulebook when it comes to love & relationship. There's no general one. You cannot just have one rulebook for all couples. Every couple is just unique in their own way."

Pui. I was blinded or unconsciously in denial. Fool.

Anyway, today, I told S about my temporary crush towards this other guy - that was before we had anything to do with each other. Well, in between lah, to be really accurate. But yeah. At that particular time at which my feelings timbul, I was not involved emotionally with anyone.

It was pretty hard, letting it off my chest. I never used to do this kinda stuff before. It didn't matter. But somehow I felt good, because in the end, we got even closer. It was good to share. I totally forgot how that felt like. It mattered. Everything matters.

At the end of the day, I just feel really - lucky.

Sharing.

It's a cliche thing that two people in love do. I guess perhaps it's time I opened that general rulebook. The rulebook that applies to all functional relationships.